A Saturday Night of a Broke Girl: Thoughts

“Why do you love sunsets so much?” my brother asked me a few days ago.

I sat there unable to answer a perfectly acceptable question. It wasn’t that I didn’t have an answer or that I didn’t know the reason for my, in his words, “obsession” about sunsets. The truth was, I could not put into words what sunsets mean to me. Well, of course, I could. Just not in the words he’d somehow understand, and especially not in the words my mother, who was present at that time, would even begin to understand.

Sunsets, to me, are a constant reminder that, as cliche as it sounds, life is beautiful. I feel constantly lost in this world, unable to find my meaning, and I feel that somehow my existence is a cosmic anomaly. Sunsets take all those feelings away. Sunsets make me grateful. Grateful that, however insignificant I feel, I get to witness every day one of nature’s epic displays. And, as the sun touches the horizon, as the sky bursts into different magnificent hues of orange, I remember once again that life is worth living, I ought to give it a shot. To a thousand more sunsets!



Something Random


I’m the kind of girl who prefers planned things, so I very rarely do something out of the moment.


Last Sunday, about a week ago, K and and I went on a random morning hike. Well, more like a walkathon. The plan was only to go visit our dead relatives in the cemetery, but somehow we ended up X kilometers away from civilization. And being almost devoid of any sense of direction, I started getting pissed because it started feeling toooo far away.

You know that feeling where you still have a long, long way to go but it’s equally as far to go back? The sun was already so high up, I could feel it pricking my skin. I was wearing the wrong shoes so it was a nightmare stepping on rocks. But it felt good!


The view of the sky and mountains were amazing though my phone camera would never do justice to it. It was a pleasant change of scenery compared to the malls and buildings we’re used to.


Officially promising myself to do more of this at the right time of the day and with proper shoes. 🙂

My Happy Project | Vol. 02

Hello everyone. Yay! I finally got around to making another entry on My Happy Project series. I was inspired to do this by The Happy List tag (?). Last July has been hella crazy month for me. I’m glad it’s over and I’m glad it happened, too. It was hectic and fun at the same time. 😀 Without further delay, here’s my list of things that made me happy recently.

*Got Ears Pierced Again…

I’m not talking about another set of piercings though! 🙂 I got my ears pieced when I was a kid but since I’m not a fan of wearing earrings, it just closed as time passed. After so many years, I decided to get them ears pierced again. No photo for proof though. Sorry. Can’t take decent ear photos. 😦

*Fun Beach Activity


As I’ve mentioned previously, I’m currently taking classes right now. Our class had an event at the beach for our Personality Development module. It was a super long and stressful day because it was all short notice so we went insane with the preparations. I volunteered to make the program for the event and ended up having to volunteer myself to do the opening speech for the program, too.

We spent the whole day at the beach but didn’t really go swimming, which is totally ironic. We just spent the rest of the afternoon after our program singing karaoke and dancing, me swaying 😀 It was a public resort so there were quite a lot of people around the area, who probably thought we were all drunk but we didn’t have a drop of alcohol on us.

Some of my classmates and I didn’t go home until it started raining, so we had to walk under the rain for a couple minutes. It ended up raining soooo hard that there was a power outage by the time I got back to the city. I had agreed to meeting my family that night so they picked me up from somewhere and we went to the mall. That was the first time I went to the mall drenched in rain. The lady guard looked at me funny when she gave me a pat-down. 😀


*Formal Dinner


In another one of our modules, we had a fine dining event where we had to dress up and doll up. The stress I had leading up to this event was beyond me mainly because I hate looking for a dress. Hours prior to the photos above, I had a mini meltdown because I hated the dress I got. Haha 😀 But! It all worked out.


Here’s me getting my hair and makeup done. The MUA put on pink lipstick on me at first. I loved it but somehow I didn’t feel me looking at the mirror so I asked him to change it. Out of all the mirrors in the venue, silly me went ahead to take an OOTD photo in the dark area of the venue. By the way, this is my first OOTD photo, believe it or not. 😉

*Bargain Sandals

parisian sandals

A few days before my formal event, I went to look for the perfect footwear for that said day. It was an awesome timing when we went to the mall because there was a huge sale. Huge as in BUY 1 GET 1 huge. Two pairs of sandals for just 600 pesos, which is around US $12 give or take. Cool, right?!? I got four pairs even though I only needed one. I gave one pair to my cousin (not in the photo) and I gave the gray one to my mom.

I wore the white one to the event which was probably one of the best decisions in my life. JK. Seriously, it was not a mistake choosing that pair. It was comfy and it made a clumsy person like me pretty steady. I was able to dance and run around without tripping over in it.



The first and last time I went to a club, I was 16. Ssshhh… That moment I knew I hated it and didn’t bother to go back. However, not wanting to waste my dress and makeup after our formal dinner, my classmates and I went clubbing. It was fun! And I felt free after a long time. I never thought I’d one day dance in public sober but I did!!! And I congratulate myself for that. 🙂



Class ended earlier last Saturday so we got pizza! I’m not a very sociable person so it’s nice to go out with new people once in a while to bond over pizza, small talks, and laughter. Had a fun afternoon with these people.


Well, that concludes My Happy Project for now! Those are the recent events in my life. It’s been fun and I had fun writing about it, too. 🙂 Until next time!!! Oh! If you’re interested, here’s a link to my previous My Happy Project entry. Thanks for reading. Bye! 🙂

Know Thyself 3 | A personal growth exercise

Hey! Hey! Hey! I’m back with the third and final part of the personal growth exercise I’m doing. Part 1 and Part 2 are here. As I’ve said, I got this from Pinterest from Misty Sansom. So here are my responses for Questions 18 through 25.


18. What do you love to do for, or give to others (not an object – something from you personally)?

For someone who likes being alone most of the time, I’d say I love giving others my time. I love it when I actually look for other people’s company because it rarely happens. So when it happens I make sure to make the most out of it to reconnect with people in my life.

19. What excites you?

Pens, books, and booze. And taking top spot on the list would be lipsticks!

20. What do you wish you did more of?

Adventures and travel. I liked being safe too much when I was younger. I wish I had been a bit more open to adventures before.

21. Pretend money is no object. What would you do?

Pack my bags and go where my feet take me.

22. What area of your life right now makes you feel the best? Which area makes you feel worst? Why?

The truth is, there are a lot of areas in my life that make me feel worse right now but I can’t really talk about it yet. The area that makes me feel best would be is the fact that I feel like I’m on track to making problematic areas of my life better. I feel best right now because I feel like I’m headed somewhere. A feeling I haven’t had in years.

23. Let’s jump forward a year. What would you like to have achieved in the past year?

I hope I’d be an NC II certified caregiver by then and that I’m already processing things to go work abroad. I hope this blog would still be alive and perhaps bigger. I don’t know about bigger but I hope I’d be putting better content by then. Haha! 😀

24. What piece of advice would you give to five-year-old you? Sixteen-year-old you? Twenty one-year-old you? Right now?

To 5-year-old me: “Go outside more. Play like it’s the last day on Earth. Sleep early, drink milk. Brush your teeth. Don’t be afraid. Cry less.”

To 16-year-old me: “A boy you like will ask you to stay and change your college plans, have the courage to ask him why he’s asking that of you. Explain to him why you can’t. Don’t shrug it off, you scaredy-cat.” “Listen to Mom about taking care of your skin. She won’t push you about it and you’d regret it.” “Don’t listen to Mom when she tells you something on your cab ride when you’re about to go to Dumaguete. Stand your ground.”

To 21-year-old: “Don’t be too hard on yourself. Forgive yourself. For the love of God, stop punishing yourself.”

25. How do you want to be remembered in life?

Someone who conquered her greatest obstacle: herself.


Aaaand… it’s a wrap! I loved answering these questions. Sure enough, I feel like I know myself a little more. I did have a harder time answering this part though that I pushed it to the very end of my self-imposed deadline. I think Question 25 was the toughest, evidenced by my one-sentence answer. 😀 But I love, love Question 24. It allowed me to really look back on what life was then and reflect on things I needed to hear then. If someone told me those things, would I have listened? Hmmm. I’ll never know. Now, while I can’t turn back time, there’s still so much to look forward to.

If you would like to answer these questions, feel free to do so. And tag me if you’d like! It’d be awesome to see your answers. 🙂 Thank you for reading!


How would you answer Question 24? Let me know in the comments below! 🙂

Know Thyself 2 | A Personal Growth Exercise

Hey! Hey! Hey! I’m back with Part 2 of this personal growth exercise that I’m doing. If anyone’s interested, Part 1 is here. 🙂 As I’ve said, I got this from Pinterest from Misty Sansom. So here are my responses for Questions 10 through 17.


10. What are you most afraid of?

I would say I’m most afraid of losing people I love, most especially my family. I don’t know if I have the strength to go through grief if/when it happens. The last time I lost someone really close to me, I didn’t deal with it very well and it wasn’t pretty. I’m terrified of being in this world without the constant people in my life.

11. If life stopped today, what would you regret not doing?

A lot of things. 😀 I’d regret not making more mistakes, not having more fun. I’d regret not living my life to the fullest.

12. Who would you like to connect (or reconnect) with? Why?

I would like to reconnect with Nugget. Not for anything else, just… I want a chance for us to talk again. See what it’s like. Perhaps get some of my questions answered, my what ifs put to rest. And finally, finally close that chapter?

13. What qualities do you admire in others?

I admire one’s strong faith in God. I admire others who believe God’s purpose without a doubt. I also admire spirit and determination. Kindness and selflessness. Those are qualities I would like to have. Of course, I also love and admire one’s sense of humor or ability to make others laugh because it’s really nice to be able to put a smile on people’s faces or just brighten up someone’s day.

14. What practical skills do you wish you had?

I guess it wouldn’t really be considered as a practical skill but I would love to have singing skills up my sleeve. Maybe just enough that I could sing in a karaoke without being conscious about it. I also wish I could cook better. I probably would eventually with tons of practice. I would love it if I could whip up an awesome dinner and people would be all over how great the food was. Haha! 😀

15. Imagine you’re in your 90s. What memories would you like to have? What stories do you want to tell?

I would like lots and lots of memories of beach trips, memories underwater hopefully of me scuba diving. I want wonderful memories from trekking adventures, of majestic mountaintops, lovely sunrises and sunsets.

Of course, I would like to have fun stories like, “I was sooo drunk I <insert crazy thing here>,” or “That insane ride we had in <insert name of country here>.” But one story I would really like to have is the story of how I overcame everything, how I felt so lost in my 20s and then I figured it out and everything made sense. I want stories that would inspire my grand-kids (if I ever have any) to be good people.

16. What is your favorite book/movie/song? Why?

How Could An Angel Break My Heart by Toni Braxton. I love this song because for some odd reason it helps me concentrate. I have an unbelievably short attention span. I jump from one thing to another but this song somehow settles my mind and I could focus on one thing for several minutes longer than I normally would. I just really wish I had discovered this little fact about my brain back in college.

17. If you could make one change in the world, what would it be?

With all the bloodshed that’s going on right now, in a city not too far away from mine, in different parts of my country, in other countries, my heart weeps for all the wasted lives, for children who lost their parents and parents who lost sons and daughters. I wish for the whole world to have peace but peace is such an elusive state. So if I could change one thing in this world, maybe it would be to give every single human being a sense of kindness. I don’t know if it would change everything but I know it would be something.


So the first part of the questions were all fun but I must say I had somewhat a tough time answering this second set of the questions as it required a little more reflection into what’s in my heart. I especially love Question 15 because it made me realize that there’s still so much I have to do and I want to do. Anyway, that’s it for now. Part 3 will be up soon!

Thank you for reading! 😉

Know Thyself 1 | A Personal Growth Exercise

I was down the Pinterest rabbit hole last week and I found this… (not sure what to call it) prompt? post? Anyway, it’s called a personal growth exercise. I found the questions interesting and I would like to see how I’d respond to them. So it was posted by Misty Sansom. It has 25 questions and I’m gonna answer in three parts because I didn’t want it to be too long. Here’s the photo…


1. What does your ideal day look like?

My ideal day would be waking up early, like around 6AM (which never happens ’cause I sleep really late), get a nice workout in, have breakfast. Get some work done (girl’s gotta earn some moola). Head to the beach and wait for sunset. Lovely dinner with the people I love. Sneak in some TV or reading time. Lights off.

2. What did you want to be when you were younger?

A lot of things. I wanted to be a famous actor even though I couldn’t act to save my life. I wanted to be a doctor or a journalist. None of those things happened. 😀

3. Who are you most inspired by? Why?

My parents. I just really, really, really want to make them happy. Everything I’m doing right now I’m doing for them and I pray it works out.

4. Who would you love to meet? What would you ask?

God. I know this is too much to ask. But just… there are a lot of things I want to understand that only he/she could explain.

5. What habit would you most like to break? What habit would you most like to start?

I would like to stop procrastinating. This has been my problem my entire life. Seriously, if breathing weren’t involuntary, I would’ve died years ago. I even procrastinate on stopping my procrastinating habit. It’s a disease. I would like to start being more positive, if that counts as a habit.

6. Think of a person you truly admire. What qualities do you like about that person?

One of the persons I admire is my older brother. I know he’s not perfect. I am completely aware of his shortcomings but his heart for his family is just something so… remarkable. I admire his spirit and determination. It’s something I wish I had and something I’m striving to have.

7. How do you like to relax?

Flick through channels on TV or watch feel-good, no-brainer shows like Spongebob Squarepants. And have a Spa Day. My favorites… manicure/pedicure, foot and head massage. 🙂

8. When was the last time you did something you were afraid of?

July 16. Danced in public. Context: I dance but not when it’s not required. Hahaha! I always thought I’d only dance in a club with a gun to my head or if I’m drunk AF. Surprisingly, that night, I danced completely sober. Yay! Achievement unlocked! I don’t know what it was, maybe I was too happy or it could’ve been my makeup or the dress. I’d never know but I’m glad I did! 🙂

9. What are you most proud of?

I used to say I’m proudest of having once published my stories through a local publishing. But right now, I want to say that I’m proud that I’m trying. Again. That I’m trying to make something of myself. Even if it’s uncertain and it’s terrifying. I’m proud that I’ve had a couple of good days lately, even my okay days outnumber my terrible days for now. Most of all, I’m proud that I feel somewhat sane.


Indeed, it’s been fun answering and reflecting on these questions. Excited to answer questions 10 through 17 next! 😀 Please look out for it. Or not. Whatever works! 🙂 If you see this, thank you for clicking and taking time to read my post! Hope you have a lovely day.

My Happy Project

So I was inspired to do this post by another blogger. Her name is Glaiza and she blogs over here. I was thrilled when I found her blog because I learned she’s from the Philippines as well. Plus she has really lovely photos! She has a series on her blog called The Happy List where she lists down things that have recently made her happy. I’ve been loving reading her lists ever since I found her blog a few months back.

Here’s the thing…

I’m a cloud-over-my-head kind of person. If something happens, my mind always jumps straight to the worst case scenario. I don’t have a bag full of positivity with me all the time. And if you follow me and happen to have read a couple of my posts, you might notice that my posts are on, let’s say, the melodramatic side.

Let’s just say I’m more of a pessimist hence being super positive isn’t really a natural trait for me but I’ve decided to change things up and give positivity a shot. Nothing wrong in trying, right?


That is why I decided to do my very own list of happy things. I’m calling this My Happy Project. This project’s goal is to constantly remind myself of appreciating the little joys no matter how stressful life may get and to slowly teach myself to be positive. Because, you know, more positivity, less wrinkles!

Anyway, here is my first-ever list!

*Speaking of firsts, my first-ever muffins!

So… to be completely honest, I cannot take full credit for these. I can take one-sixth of the credit, I guess. 🙂 A few weeks ago, my group (from a class I’m taking right now) was assigned to bake muffins in one of our modules. This was my first time baking. I would love to practice baking more in the future though when I have a functional oven. These are vanilla muffins, by the way! They don’t look too muffin-y but they tasted like one. 😀




I haven’t seen Despicable Me 3 but I did see one of its trailer where Agnes was freaking out about unicorns. It was so cute! I’m obsessed with her cuteness. So I deliberately went to McDonald’s to get a Happy Meal. That grown-up lady buying a Happy Meal ALONE? Yup, ME!!!


*Night Out

Catching up with my cousin! Kay and I weren’t able to hang out for a long time. A month. Haha! So it was really great to spend time again. Photo below isn’t from the actual night out as we didn’t take photos from that day.


Class Activity

June 18. Our class did a little feeding program for the kids in one relocation site in the city. A few years ago, there was a huge flood in our city and these kids’ families were affected. There were less kids than we expected but I guess we were in an area with not so many but our activity was still a huge success!


*Food, drinks, and karaoke!

After our activity, we decided to have lunch at one of our classmate’s place. We bought lechon manok and liempo (roasted chicken and grilled pork belly). We also took the chance to hangout some more for drinks and a karaoke session!


Aaand… there you go! Those are the things to be that I’m happy and grateful about. How about you guys, what made you smile?

Keep smiling!!!