Days Like This

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I long for days like this

Sky covered up in clouds

Cold breeze on my skin

 

I long for days like this

Knowing life isn’t perfect

Yet I’m not falling apart

 

I long for days like this

Keeping my anxiety at bay

And not losing myself

 

I long for days like this

Where life’s uncertain

Yet there’s burning hope in me

 

I long for days like this

Where I may not be happy

Yet I’m not in a pool of tears

Here’s to more days like this

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Of Love and Heartbreaks | Vol. 1

“Do you love me?” She asks. After the long, deafening silence that came after they hurled hurtful words at each other.

“I do. You know I do,” he says.

She takes her eyes off him, stares at nothing in particular, carefully thinking what to say next. Finding the strength to ask a question she has had ever since she jumped into this affair full speed ahead. The sound of her heartbeat seems to get louder by the second as none of them dared to utter another word. Until finally she says…

“What about…” she started but her voice breaks. With eyes closed, she says it anyway. “Do you still love her?”

The clock ticked 1… 2… 3…

Nothing

She held herself, braced for impact while fervently hoping the impact wouldn’t happen at all.

The clock ticked 4… 5… 6…

Nothing

Hoping he’d say the two-letter word that would make all of this infinitely better.

The clock ticked 7… 8… 9…

Nothing

Longing for time to stop and snap back to ten minutes before they started yelling.

The clock ticked 10… 11… 12…

Nothing

Wishing she hadn’t asked it instead…

The clock ticked 13… 14… 15…

Finally, he says in a weak, unsure voice.

“I don’t know if I’ll ever stop loving her.”

My Robin

There’s a place in my heart that will always be yours

A place in my mind that will always remember you

A part of my soul that will always long for you

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There’s always a me that will always look for your smile in the sea of smiles that I see

A me that will always hope to find you again

A me who will always want a second chance

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Maybe I’ll never totally move on

One day, I will love someone else

Perhaps more than I loved you

But I’ll never want someone else as much as I want it to be you

Wrong Reasons

It started for all the wrong reasons

He was lonely

She was helpless

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He was tired and broken

She was young and vibrant

Like broken pieces they fit each other perfectly

And made one another whole

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It was songs and sunsets

Cool breeze and warm drinks

Until the wrong reasons

Caught up to them

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Then there were tears

And crazy drunken nights

To make that which was broken

Whole again

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Goodbyes had to be said

This time, in different places,

He’s lonely once again

She’s helpless

Now, broken, too.